Dear Livy, It's been a day...and it's not even close to over. Sage's first IEP meeting is this afternoon. It's been difficult to focus on all the moving pieces, yet there are a lot less parts compared to what went into your first meeting. You and your brother are both unique, but in very different … Continue reading Reminding Myself
Bye, Bye Preschool
Dear Olivia, The end of the school year is approaching and your friends are getting ready to transition to kindergarten. I feel like I'm approaching the true goodbye time to your school team. It's been nice having your classroom things intact. It's made us all feel like part of you is still with the class. … Continue reading Bye, Bye Preschool
Thin Pink Yarn
Dear Olivia, The brain is a very powerful organ. I know this because of you. If it weren't for the seizure that took control of your brain you'd still be here. Sometimes I tell myself that your at camp or somewhere special on a temporary basis, but that eventually you're coming home. It's these thoughts … Continue reading Thin Pink Yarn
Always Your Momma
Dear Livy, May 13, 2012 was one of the happiest most treasured days of my life. It was my first Mother's Day and you made it possible. I was 34 years old and felt like the luckiest mom on the planet. I celebrated my day with you, Daddy, Great Uncle Ed and Uncle Chaddy. It … Continue reading Always Your Momma
You Remind Me
Dear Livy, I haven't been able to take a breath in nearly a week! Sage got sick, I got sick, daddy got sick and then all hell broke loose. Its a good thing you didn't get sick too. Barfing was never your thing, but I wish more than ever you were here. I need you … Continue reading You Remind Me
Letters To Nowhere
Dear Olivia, A friend of mine told me that I should write the letters I want to write and say what I need to say. That I should get it out of my system, all of it! Then rip it up and throw it away. I did it and I didn't think it would make … Continue reading Letters To Nowhere
With You
Dear Olivia, I've been thinking about all the ways you impacted and changed my life for the better. Although my heart continuously aches and I find myself getting less emotional on a regular basis, but more often at random when I least expect it, I'm realizing that this is what life is going to be … Continue reading With You
A Simple Hug
Dear Olivia, As I rolled through the front door this evening I had this out of the blue urge to hug you. I looked at your picture on the table, took in a deep breath, held it and then bottled it up long enough to get settled in. I came home and imagined you'd be … Continue reading A Simple Hug
More of the Same
Dear Livy, After shock comes numbness. I know this because it's where I'm at. I care, but I don't care. I just feel like I'm going through the motions that are expected of me. Vacation is what I expected...different. There's no structure. I miss that. Hardly anything we do anymore is based on your schedule. … Continue reading More of the Same
Stuck in a Hump
Dear Olivia, I've experienced many things in life. Yet there has been nothing more life changing than losing you. I'm sure this is true for most parents who have experienced the loss of a child. I know I'm not alone, but it feels very lonely where I'm at. I don't want to be so depressed, … Continue reading Stuck in a Hump
