Dear Olivia, Using the phrase "I miss you" seems so insignifcantly meaningless compared to the way I really feel. Some days are easier than others and everyone says that is normal, but when it hurts, it hurts really, really bad. That's the part that few truly understand. Staying busy at work continues to help and … Continue reading This Road Sucks
Month: March 2017
Livy Love
Dear Olivia, I'm really not all that surprised when out of the blue people share with me how much they love and miss you. At first I thought no one could miss you as much as I do and that it was strange that people would tell me how often they think of you, but … Continue reading Livy Love
Countless Impacts of Loss
Dear Olivia, I did it again. I got on the plane this morning and sat next to a lady that couldn't stop talking. First she wanted to know why I was little, then she wanted to know if it was genetic. I'm generally okay educating random strangers because my personal feeling is that if they … Continue reading Countless Impacts of Loss
Friends Forver
Dear Olivia, I'm still sending thank you cards to all the people in our lives who have gone out of their way to be here for our family. I send at least five cards a week. Some include a Livy memory bracelets. Others have a brief but thoughtful note inside. Your dad gave memory bracelets … Continue reading Friends Forver
Forever On My Mind
Dear Olivia, I'm on my sixth audiobook of the year. Can you believe it? I went from listening to upbeat happy music during my 2 hour commute, to a wide variety of non-fiction and fiction stories. Everything I've read has reminded me of you. First it was the baby who died in "Small Great Things." … Continue reading Forever On My Mind
What I Didn’t Hear
Dear Olivia, When I hear you breathing like that it makes me feel like I'm getting the wind knocked out of me over and over again. I can't go back to sleep when I hear it and then I just lay in bed questioning what I could have done differently. It's a vicious cycle and … Continue reading What I Didn’t Hear
Letters
Dear Olivia, When I talk to my brother (your Uncle Chaddy) I'm always left feeling so grateful to have him. We might be sixteen years and 3,000 miles a part, but we're as close as siblings come. I share my strangest thoughts and secrets with him. I know he's my brother and that we're both … Continue reading Letters
Staying With Me
Dear Olivia, There are advantages and disadvantages to people knowing that you've passed on. It's been played out this week. I've come to realize that sometimes it makes getting through a day easier, when people know, because they're more understanding. When they don't know they seem annoyed and less patient with me. I've been known … Continue reading Staying With Me
Dear Livy 