Dear Livy, May 13, 2012 was one of the happiest most treasured days of my life. It was my first Mother's Day and you made it possible. I was 34 years old and felt like the luckiest mom on the planet. I celebrated my day with you, Daddy, Great Uncle Ed and Uncle Chaddy. It … Continue reading Always Your Momma
You Remind Me
Dear Livy, I haven't been able to take a breath in nearly a week! Sage got sick, I got sick, daddy got sick and then all hell broke loose. Its a good thing you didn't get sick too. Barfing was never your thing, but I wish more than ever you were here. I need you … Continue reading You Remind Me
Letters To Nowhere
Dear Olivia, A friend of mine told me that I should write the letters I want to write and say what I need to say. That I should get it out of my system, all of it! Then rip it up and throw it away. I did it and I didn't think it would make … Continue reading Letters To Nowhere
With You
Dear Olivia, I've been thinking about all the ways you impacted and changed my life for the better. Although my heart continuously aches and I find myself getting less emotional on a regular basis, but more often at random when I least expect it, I'm realizing that this is what life is going to be … Continue reading With You
A Simple Hug
Dear Olivia, As I rolled through the front door this evening I had this out of the blue urge to hug you. I looked at your picture on the table, took in a deep breath, held it and then bottled it up long enough to get settled in. I came home and imagined you'd be … Continue reading A Simple Hug
More of the Same
Dear Livy, After shock comes numbness. I know this because it's where I'm at. I care, but I don't care. I just feel like I'm going through the motions that are expected of me. Vacation is what I expected...different. There's no structure. I miss that. Hardly anything we do anymore is based on your schedule. … Continue reading More of the Same
Stuck in a Hump
Dear Olivia, I've experienced many things in life. Yet there has been nothing more life changing than losing you. I'm sure this is true for most parents who have experienced the loss of a child. I know I'm not alone, but it feels very lonely where I'm at. I don't want to be so depressed, … Continue reading Stuck in a Hump
Another Week, Another Month
Dear Olivia, You're constantly on my mind and forever in my heart. I've been slowly preparing for our Spring Break vacation and am having a difficult time finding the motivation to get excited about it. Twice this week I completely blanked that you were gone and started getting you ready for vacation too. While going … Continue reading Another Week, Another Month
This Road Sucks
Dear Olivia, Using the phrase "I miss you" seems so insignifcantly meaningless compared to the way I really feel. Some days are easier than others and everyone says that is normal, but when it hurts, it hurts really, really bad. That's the part that few truly understand. Staying busy at work continues to help and … Continue reading This Road Sucks
Livy Love
Dear Olivia, I'm really not all that surprised when out of the blue people share with me how much they love and miss you. At first I thought no one could miss you as much as I do and that it was strange that people would tell me how often they think of you, but … Continue reading Livy Love
Dear Livy 