Dear Livy, After shock comes numbness. I know this because it's where I'm at. I care, but I don't care. I just feel like I'm going through the motions that are expected of me. Vacation is what I expected...different. There's no structure. I miss that. Hardly anything we do anymore is based on your schedule. … Continue reading More of the Same
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Another Week, Another Month
Dear Olivia, You're constantly on my mind and forever in my heart. I've been slowly preparing for our Spring Break vacation and am having a difficult time finding the motivation to get excited about it. Twice this week I completely blanked that you were gone and started getting you ready for vacation too. While going … Continue reading Another Week, Another Month
Forever On My Mind
Dear Olivia, I'm on my sixth audiobook of the year. Can you believe it? I went from listening to upbeat happy music during my 2 hour commute, to a wide variety of non-fiction and fiction stories. Everything I've read has reminded me of you. First it was the baby who died in "Small Great Things." … Continue reading Forever On My Mind
Staying With Me
Dear Olivia, There are advantages and disadvantages to people knowing that you've passed on. It's been played out this week. I've come to realize that sometimes it makes getting through a day easier, when people know, because they're more understanding. When they don't know they seem annoyed and less patient with me. I've been known … Continue reading Staying With Me
Hold My Hand
Dear Olivia, Grieving sucks. When you think you've got nothing left to cry about, you're wrong. When you think you can say something without crying because you've already cried when you said it the first hundred times, you still cry... I still cry. I'm getting use to the lump in my throats when people ask me … Continue reading Hold My Hand
Dear Livy 