Dear Olivia, I am reminded of you through everything I do. Sometimes it’s really hard for me to sit through a presentation or meeting knowing the subject of the meeting would have impacted your quality of life. A career in disability rights isn’t always easy. Our family lives, breaths and believes in everything that we … Continue reading Silence
Tag: loss
Top Left Corner
Dear Olivia,There are many things that we see in life through our own individualized tunnel vision. We don't always realize how or when we may find ourselves looking at that space or point in time again, but from a different angel of the tunnel. I found myself in that place today. That window on the … Continue reading Top Left Corner
Bye, Bye Preschool
Dear Olivia, The end of the school year is approaching and your friends are getting ready to transition to kindergarten. I feel like I'm approaching the true goodbye time to your school team. It's been nice having your classroom things intact. It's made us all feel like part of you is still with the class. … Continue reading Bye, Bye Preschool
A Simple Hug
Dear Olivia, As I rolled through the front door this evening I had this out of the blue urge to hug you. I looked at your picture on the table, took in a deep breath, held it and then bottled it up long enough to get settled in. I came home and imagined you'd be … Continue reading A Simple Hug
More of the Same
Dear Livy, After shock comes numbness. I know this because it's where I'm at. I care, but I don't care. I just feel like I'm going through the motions that are expected of me. Vacation is what I expected...different. There's no structure. I miss that. Hardly anything we do anymore is based on your schedule. … Continue reading More of the Same
Stuck in a Hump
Dear Olivia, I've experienced many things in life. Yet there has been nothing more life changing than losing you. I'm sure this is true for most parents who have experienced the loss of a child. I know I'm not alone, but it feels very lonely where I'm at. I don't want to be so depressed, … Continue reading Stuck in a Hump
Another Week, Another Month
Dear Olivia, You're constantly on my mind and forever in my heart. I've been slowly preparing for our Spring Break vacation and am having a difficult time finding the motivation to get excited about it. Twice this week I completely blanked that you were gone and started getting you ready for vacation too. While going … Continue reading Another Week, Another Month
This Road Sucks
Dear Olivia, Using the phrase "I miss you" seems so insignifcantly meaningless compared to the way I really feel. Some days are easier than others and everyone says that is normal, but when it hurts, it hurts really, really bad. That's the part that few truly understand. Staying busy at work continues to help and … Continue reading This Road Sucks
Livy Love
Dear Olivia, I'm really not all that surprised when out of the blue people share with me how much they love and miss you. At first I thought no one could miss you as much as I do and that it was strange that people would tell me how often they think of you, but … Continue reading Livy Love
Friends Forver
Dear Olivia, I'm still sending thank you cards to all the people in our lives who have gone out of their way to be here for our family. I send at least five cards a week. Some include a Livy memory bracelets. Others have a brief but thoughtful note inside. Your dad gave memory bracelets … Continue reading Friends Forver
